It has certainly been a quick minute since I posted anything on here!! It has been an INSANE last couple of months...I ended things with Scott (who turned out to be positively no good on anything for me) and that took me down a very deep and emotional self reflection path. I have spent far too much of my life investing my time into what others want or expect of me, and not near that amount of effort into what I want and what I expect of myself. Believe me, that's changing. Had a nice long chat with Artemis about it and she set me straight. She also pointed out the thing right under my nose that I had been missing all along...my dearest friend James who had been in love with me for about two years now. Yikes my life sounds like a soap opera! However, since James and I got our feelings in the air and decided to see where we can go, I have never been so happy or content in all areas of my life, to include spiritual. I've been practicing more rituals, actually done quite a few candle spells and it feels so phenomenal after a successful casting!! :) My dreams have been getting more intense, and I ended up having to do a cleansing in our room because my roommate was convinced I had accidentally brought in a spirit around Samhain. Entirely possible, though certainly not expected!! Still struggling with my meditation, so Im dedicating an hour in the morning-meaning I have to get up earlier- to have some time with the goddess before I start in on the day. Im pretty sure it will be the best for everyone!! I've also attracted, or rather I have been attracted to, another deity, Brigid. Spending some time with her as well. Sister says its the Celtic roots- I'll take it!! I'm starting to feel a lot more comfortable calling myself a witch and I'm definitely far more adamant about my beliefs now than I EVER was a Christian. The last couple months have, at the very least, taught me that everything happens for a reason, regardless of whether its religion, love, work, family struggles.....we simply must take it as a challenge and make sure we do what we can to be "reborn" from it as a stronger and wiser individual than we started out as :) Titleing this entry as Phoenix is so incredibly accurate, for not only have I emerged from the flames beter than before, but the fire assoicated with it, and the passion it creates, is truly burning all through my core, ready to take on the next thing the Goddess throws at me! For now, my struggle is staying awake on 24 hr shift, so in the meantime, many blessings to you all until next time!!
